goodbye

So ..... i don't have alot of time to write but i have a little time on my hands .Also i'm going to try to write more so my journal are longer so , let's go !

 

 

Ryan P.O.V.

 

I can't believe it ! I mean i thought girl like me but she doesn't .I look back to see Brendon running to me hes look kind of sad . Why would he be sad ? i thought to myself .

Hey , Brendon why do you look so sad ? I said him .

Cause of you .I mean i know you really like her and i like her too but your one of my best friend and well your sad am sad .I  know that sound gay but I love you like a brother .

Brendon i love to you too like a brother and if she doesn't like me and that means that like you . So i want you to go up to her as but first i have to talk to her .Is that ok with you ?

Ryan i can't she yours

No ! not then this !

What do you mean ?

Just wait . I'm not going nothing bad or anything i'm just going to talk to her !

really ?

really ! just wait and your see soon .

I walk to Joandaly i had to broke her heart .I know she doesn't like me back i have to it because she be so mean that the first person she see she'll cry on like Brendon and i know that Brendon like her so i know that he'll be by her side .I still like her but she doesn't like me . I know it sound wierd but it will work .

Hey, Joandaly , i have to talk to you now .

Um sure so, what up ?

Ok ,  good , i just wanted to say that i didn't really like you .I just wanted some thats all , i mean your a hot pick of ass i not going to past you up .I'm right , right ? now you see that boy hes name is Brendon he like you ok , hes kind of wants to date you .He to scared to talk to you ,ok ,ok hes not really ! hes doesn't know that i'm talking to you . So, don't tell him ,ok sweetheart ? Also he funny so i think you'll going to like him .

Joandaly P.O.V.

 

I can't believe him . I know thats not him . I want to see the sweet ,kind ,and shy Ryan that i know not this one . I knewn that i was crying but i don't care .

Ryan why are you doing this ? I know this is not you . I said in tears .

 

 

 

 

 

oh i'm sorry i have to go ! babysitting came up ! but i'll be back soon ! bye !

 

 

 

 

So ok i don't have alot of time so , i have to do this day cuz my cousin is coming home and she didn't know that i have a buzznet page so let's get the party started !

 

Joandaly P.O.V.

I feel very confused Ryan and Brendon keep on giving each other looks .It look their face talking if you can call it that . I'm not very good with read what on their face so to speak but i can read some od them , like i know Ryan is not to happy with Brendon right now but Brendon id like dude sorry but yeah guess what i don't care i love you don't not a much to sorry about you in this one . Brendon was pretty esay to read Rayn not so much but i'll see some thing here and there pretty it was pertty hard .Then they stop Ryan look at me a smile and started to talk to me .

so, Joan , is it ok to call you that ?

sure its ok

so , i have to as you some thing

what is it ?

um do you like me ?

i didn't know what  to said i mean its Rayn f-ing Ross answering what was i going to say ? i don't want to sounds wierd or crazy cause sometime i say stupid things like now .

no !

why did i just say like what  i mean i did like him but i think the reason i said that was because i was scared for what he was going to say . I mean he didn't ask me out or anything , so why i'm so scared ?

oh i see !

no you don't i said but i think it was to late .He look at me with sad eyes and then see away .I feel so bad right now  . I think now i know what Brendon  and Ryan was face talking about maybe Brendon like me too .But Ryan saw me first so , i guess he like me first so ,i guess he think he has the right to me ?

no , Ryan i do like you but ............ i can't think !

but nothing Ryan said and walk alway .I wanted to cry i didn't know why really but i think it was because i don't like to hurt people or maybe i very like him and now he gone .

 

 

 

  ok ! thats it for now ! I was going to do ryan P.O.V.  but i'm kinda want to go to sleep . so bye !

 

 

Well i are nothing to really say but i would like to thank Ashely for reading my story . I know its not the best in the whole world but thanks anyway . i heart you ! well let's go  and get on with the story . !!!!!!

 

Still Ryan P.O.V.

i'm very SORRY ! the voice said .

Its ok

I look down to see a girl . She had short drown hair and brown creamie eyes . She look like she in her  early 20s or late teens . I help her up and i give her a warm smile to let her know the whole sthing was in the past . She smile back at me to let the samething .

Hey ! i'm Ryan

I know who you are , your from Panic! right ?

yeah ! what your name by the way ?

oh , sorry ! i'm Joandaly .

oh well then nice to meet  you Joandaly i said shaking her hand .

oh no ! nice to meet you i love your music . sorry if thats wired ,i'm not one of your crazy 14 year old fans that would go crazy right now .

haha your pretty funny for a girl !!

oh you mean yourself right ? cause i only see one girl and that girl is you .

haha i'm sorry i'm just having a little fun I siad with a smile on my face .

its ok ! just don't get crazy with the jokes or i might have to hurt you .

haha thats if you can catch me ? I started to run around back stage. She was started to run too and kind of  close but some people have to ruined all the fun . I'm talking about Brendon . Why does hes always have to in the best of time and ruin it ? 

Hey ! who this hottie ? Brendon asked .

I'm Joandaly and don't call me hottie !

oh right ! but i can't help myself your just so ......... so ............. hot !

yeah ! i think you didn't hear what i said or did you ?

clam down i'm just playing with you , i think your cute but it look like your with someone .

who ?

Ryan

oh ! i just met him . we are just friends.

Brendon give me look of lke you have been burn and you better watch out cause t'm there .

I look at him as if to say no you don't !

oh ! i think i will he said out loud .

what did you say ? Joadaly ask him .

oh really nothing sometime i say thing out loud .

see look at him with very confused eyes . i think she knew that hes lieing to her but she let it go .i think its going to be a long tour .

 

 

 

 

I hope you like it .Its short but i have to go to sleep . I'm sick so i need some sleep and i also have to go to C.C.D. class . It's only 2 hours , well its one but i have to go to church too so , it's 2 altogether . so BYE !

 

 

                                                                                       HREAT YOU ALL WHO READ THIS !

                                                                                               YOU KNOW WHO IT IS !

                                                                                                                                     

for all the people that read my story .  I have change the name of it from " CRAZY IN LOVE " TO "I SET MY FRIEND ON FIRE " . It a aiden song that i LOVE TO DEATH !!!!!!! well bye !

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

                                                                                                                        love

                                                                                                                                your

                                                                                                                                           friend,

                                                                                                                                                 JOANDALY 

                                                

                                           CRAZY IN LOVE ( PART 2 )                   

  Joandaly P.O.V.

COME ON ! WE'LL GOING TO BE LATE ! I YELLED . OK ,OK, WE'LL COMING CALM DOWN ! Sarah YELLED back . Sarah was one of my best friends in the world , along with Faith , Ashley , Mariam , Ann  . We all live in a 5 bedroom , 2 floor ,  2 bathroom , 1 kitchen , (and so on and front) house . We'll like a kind of  family , jus t with all girls , an sister hood  ( if i can say that ), we love eachother so much but right  now if they don't come down within the next 10 mins. i'm going to have to carrie on their ass ! I thought to myself . Is anyway good to go ? I ask  YELLING like a crazy person .  I'm alway the first one good to go for eveything and i'm also the one to get mad frist cause they take forever and right now i'm  very mad cause to day is the frist day of "NOTHING RHYMES WITH CIRCLE TOUR " AND I HAVE PASSES ! anyway atfer i had my moments to my self one by one they came down , and than atfer i said something to th girls  we  where off . (finally !!!!!! ) Atfer  33 mins of nothing  to say we get there . We jump out of the car and get are spot and just set and talk about bands that was on the tour . Than it started     like this Kill Hannah ,  Taking Back Sunday  ,  My Chemical Romance , Fall out boy and than the headlineing band PANIC! AT THE  DISCO ! played and rock it . The whole time we were jumping , singing and more things like that . we feel like teen again in middie school . Atfer the show  ended we when back stage to hang  . we all spilt up Ash and Mariam when to see panic! seeing that ash like Spencer and Mariam like Jon . Ann and Sarah when to see Adam and Matt from Taking Back Sunday . Faith when to see Jon R. from Kill Hannah . In my case I feel sick and i wanted to go home ( i think it was that hot dogs. ) So, as i walk aound looking for something to do , i run into someone i look up to  see Ryan Ross .

 

 

Ryan Ross P.O.V.

 

I'm going out for air i'll be back soon I told Brendon as I walk out of the room . I feel so sad , so alone , I don't know why I feel this way ,maybe i need a dog or maybe i need a girlfri ...... my thougth was interpreted , when someboby knot in to me .

 

 

 

 

i'm not done !!

               Brendon Urie P.O.V

    

              I was waken by something coming from somewere .So I got out my bed (My very big nice bed lady if u know what I'm saying) to see RAYN cooking eggs !. The following is a CONSERVATION ( The a big word for nonspelling person like me !) 

ARE YOU FOR REAL ? I said with anger in my voice .

YES! I'm for real feel me . Rayn said satirically (I think so I hope so ).

Rayn you are so fucking weird u know that ?

Yeah ! u tell me that everday go to sleep .

I can't

why ?

Becuz of u n that fucking eggs cooking that why !!!!

that to bad u do know that the tour strat today u do know ?(btw its 4:00 in the morning I think u should know that)

yeah! I'm going to my room to watch "I love Lucky" n "Good Time" don't come in u funking ass.(I THINK I NEED ANGER MANAGMENT OR SOMETHING I GET SO MAD IT CAZY).

Its someone time of the month.Rayn mumble to himself.

As I watch "I love Lucky" I though to myself about the tour and suff n it made me sad that I don't have a girlfriend maybe I'll find that person someday.

 

 

Sorry but "ALOT LIKE LOVE " IS OVER . I'm going to start a new Its going to be the cooless I promise . I'm going to start writing soon !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Don't Sarah, Faith, and Convincingyenough ....................OoOo by the way what do u want me to call u by ?..........Sorry !!!!!!!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

                                                                                                 love,

                                                                                                            TBSLOVERGIRL

                                                                                                                                       A.K.A

                                                                                                                                                      Joandaly

 

                 Fuck his girlfriend !!!!!!!!!! and she ulgy !!!! I rand out of the room called one of my best friends Faith to tell her she didn't pick up. I walked in and look her dead in the eyes kind of like I was saying u Bicth .I soon realize I have a boyfriend I feel was bad about my thinking of Adam but I think I'm benning to like Adam .

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4 hours later .........

We all left for a bit or something  whatever we feel like doing.We stop to got some pizza as  all the guys does what they do best eat. I when to the bathroom Emma follow as I open the door Emma smack me in to the bathroom wall and said this to me the following ..........................

Listened bicth I know you like me boyfriend I'm not dumb.And The next I  see you look that him I'm going to kill you !!!! I love him and I would fight for him you bicth!!!!!!!

Then birng it BICTH !!!! I said as I  walk alway with a big smlie on my face .

            LET ME BE THE FIRST PERSON ON BUZZNET TO WISH U A NEW YEAR !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SO HAPPY NEW YEAR !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GOOD LUCK GOING BACK TO SCHOOL !!!!!!!!!!!!

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              That mother fucking man changed my life my good ways and my bad way . So now let's get on with the story . Mark came up to and wrap his arms aound my waist .Everthing was prefect He love me I love him .OooOoOo and by the way he great me bed too. OK ,OK I'm going to the story now I promies . Yesterday Mark had ask me to go to  the studio with him . So today I'm going to meet to Adam . I have Matt because of  Sarah and have met Mark because of them too and so on and so front . Me and Mark walk into the studio I was so I don't know what was wrong with me I wonder it was because I alway startled thinking to my self it was because I kinda like Adam 

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     Hi babe are ok ? Mark said with a confusion on his face . 

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yeah !! I repiled

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ok than I would like for to meet someone ? Mark said with excitement in his vocie .

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I knew who it was thinking to myself.

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Joandaly this is Adam ,Adam this is Joandaly Mark said .

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Hi....hi Adam  I said scary out of my ass .

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Hi Joandaly Adam repiled .

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I look at Adam his hair in his eye he look so..........he look so.........I don't have the words for it .

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Adam P.O.V

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I look  at her she look beautiful I wanted to kiss her so badly but she Mark girlfriend and is one of my bestfriend .

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Back to me .........

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Than I saw a women walk to me and Adam with a evil look on her face .

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Adam who is this ? she ask Adam .

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This is Joandaly ,Joandaly meet Emma .Emma meet Joandaly.

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Hi , are you his sister or something ?

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NO!!!!!! I'M HIS GIRLFRIEND  !!!!!!!!!!she shouted giveing me a evil smile .

           I look at Mark in excitement that I had a date to the moives but to see  my exboyfriend  to would mean the world to me . You see my ex work at the moives and to see me with mark from taking back sunday would kill him .

 

hi Jonadaly are u coming matt as me .

nmmmmmm I mumble .

ok than let's go than Mark said .

we all got in matt car and left to go see happy feet .we got  to the moive 20 min later sarah and matt set in front  and me  and mark .Mark and I talk about life ,music and suff like that. Mark look at real hard like he was mad or something .

Joandaly will you go out with me ? Mark said .

YES,YES, I  WOULD LOVE TO GO OUT WITH YOU !!!!!!!!! I SHOUTED SO LOUD THAT THE PEOPLE ALL LOOK AT US .

Me and Mark laughing even louder .

So,for a mouth me and mark ward together ever mins of the day .But than that day came the day that changed everthing...........

 

      I walk around my apartment waiting for  my friend Sarah and her boyfriend Matt . They called  me about an hour ago to tell me to get my sad ass off the couch and get dressed . I was wearing some grey skinny jeans, a black track top and black falts . Just in case it rained a jacket and a umbrella . I  think I cleaned up pretty good considering that I  have just brokeing up with my boyfriend of almost 2 year just 2 mouths ago . So for the past 2 mouths I have been watching " The notebook " and listening to my coldplay album . Than I hear a knock . It was sarah and Matt looking so happy together  that made me feel so good inside . That made want to cry again see them so happy  them kissing like cazy  .    HI  Joan we have a supiesns for you Sarah and Matt said .             what is it I said with happyies in my voiec . A man walk in my house  it was Mark .!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

       SO,I WANT TO WIRTE STORY ABOUT ADAM OR MATT AND ME AND ITS LOVE THAT FIRST WHATEVER......LOL BUT ADAM OR MATT HAVE A GIRLFRIEND . SO, I WANT TO KNOW DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEAS ?                     LOVE,   TBSLOVERGIRL